I fucked up again.

It would be easy to blame a lot of things external. However I can only blame myself and thats why it sucks so bad.
Thats what happens when we make assumptions. We think we are polishing a diamond but in fact we are polishing turds.
Twice in recent memory I have assumed I knew the start time of events only to later discover that because I didn't check not only was I wrong but I missed them.
Today's event didn't result in a financial loss luckily because I did not have an advanced ticket.

However seeing as I was a performer at the event (it was a 2 day thing) my backstage pass from yesterday probably would have gotten me in for free. On the other hand I know about the secret backstage door as well so I could have just as easily walked in for free not that I would but it is an option!

It turns out todays event started at 2pm which is ridiculous where as yesterdays started at 530.
I assumed today would be the same especially given the fact that the main attraction is a band that I love called:

溺れたエビの検死報告書 　The Autopsy Report of Drowned Shrimp





Ya they are awesome I know. Totally original and something you have to see.
A truly amazing group of talented musicians that blow everyone away live.
One of the few live acts I have seen that I wanted the show to be over faster because I couldn't handle its power.

Godspeed you black emperor was another band like that.

Anyway, at about 3pm I checked the flyer to double check. By that time there were already on stage. I simply have to become literate in Japanese faster.

The other big disappointment I created for myself by not coming today was yesterday at the event I met 2 really cute girls who were staff at the event.
While I did manage to give them both my card I
did also say that I would be coming tonight as well.
Girls in general are scared to make the first move. Even if you give them your number or whatever they usually will not do anything.
1 of the 2 girls was more outgoing by far. So I spent most of the night yesterday talking to her. I dare not say which was more attractive because they each had strengths and weaknesses however girl one seemed to enjoy flirting with me.
Her confidence was sexy. So was her playfulness.
Because of it I focused on her however if she was not there I would have been happy flirting with girl 2.

However girl number 1 had 1 very big pause for concern. She has a 3 year old daughter. Which she said right away in a very manner of fact way. I often do the same when I first meet people. I tell them I am a big weirdo. Far too many women have disappeared after seeing photos of me on stage or my art or whatever so I assume that she too would much rather have that out in the open. That way potential partners can quickly and easily stop with the chase.
She said it and for a moment I was taken aback, but like all things I remembered well, you never know until you try and I really didn't know anything about her. I want kids eventually so what difference is it if its my blood or not?

So I am certainly willing to try being her friend and getting to know her better and find out what it is she wants. Come to think of it she never specifically said that she was a single mom. So perhaps I am just assuming again.
Maybe shes just really flirty and playful.
Go team assumption!

So lets see if she makes a move.
However I doubt she will and with that choice so goes my worries of wondering if I should try dating a mommy.